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  1. 4 years later…

    September 23, 2016 by B.Good

    Wow.  Didn’t know I’d be down for this long. It’s taken nearly four years for me to come back to this blog, and commit myself to living the “GOOD” life.

    As I read my last post, written on December 18, 2012, I see I didn’t change a thing.  Not one single thing.  I didn’t learn my lesson, I wasn’t careful, I wasn’t mindful, and now I must re-lose all of the weight I had lost since January 2007.  Learning the same exact lesson…4 years later (well, I guess it’s really 10 years later…but I digress).

    How ridiculous is that?

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    It’s like the movie Groundhog Day…living the same exact experience, over and over again.  Wondering if the world has gone crazy…or is it just me?  Spoiler Alert: it’s just me.  It’s clear that I will never conquer this area of my life until I make significant and permanent changes.  And as I’m typing this now…I’m almost certain I’ve typed this before.

    But I must say…as I lose and gain, and lose and gain some more…I learn more and more just how serious and indefinite my condition is. It’s perplexing to me how this process has gone.  How one minute I can be fully focused and locked in on living a healthy lifestyle…and then a few minutes later…I can be completely thrown off track and lose sight of it altogether.

    What IS that?  Why does that happen?

    I suppose it’s different for everyone, but for me it comes down to one thing: I Am An Addict.  I cannot slip, dip, flip, or skip out on my routine AT ALL, whatsoever.  There is no such thing as a “cheat day”, meal, or snack for me.  I am an emotional eater of the highest highs and the lowest lows.  I can neither use food as a reward nor as comfort.  Like an alcoholic can’t have just 1 glass…I can’t have just 1 treat.  Plain and simple.  It’s a serious issue for me, I just can’t do it, and I just have to accept that.

    I wish I had kept up with blogging.  My most successful weight loss accomplishments have happened while I blogged through it.  Blogging is a great accountability tool for me.  Had I stayed with it and read through my old posts…I may have found the momentum I needed to get back in the game and stay in the game….much sooner than now.

    But I can’t dwell on that.  I am here now…again…and pray I never stray…again.

    I am indeed, still, motivated by my failure.


  2. Motivators: Failure

    December 18, 2012 by B.Good

    Losing weight is hard. Even if you were living in a vacuum, being spoon fed healthy foods, and had a machine that burns calories in your sleep…it would still be hard.

    So you can understand how much HARDER it is to lose weight and be healthy…when EVERYONE around you is on a whole nutha’ agenda. Eating WHATever, whenever, however. It’s far too easy to fall into sync with them and lose track of what you are trying to do. As I sit and type right now, my companion brings in a whole pizza, and sits it in my face. All seasoned up with garlic salt, red pepper flakes, and oregano. *drools* Now it’s looking at me begging me to take a slice. Oh how nice & easy that would be, if not for the fact that…I’ve been backsliding.
    Weary

    What they don’t tell you about a “healthy” lifestyle change is that…you can never go back…if you want to stay healthy. Like ever. Not even a little bit.

    How much easier would it be if everyone could just change along with me? (Not too far-fetched, right?)

    *sigh*

    I’m really disappointed in myself. Again, yet AGAIN, I could have been at my healthy weight by now, but instead, I’m further away than I was before. But perhaps I needed this wake-up call. I can’t phone in these next 30 lbs. And if I’m not careful, it’ll be more than that.

    I keep thinking…“Argh! I can’t WAIT till I lose this weight, so I can eat like a regular person and not have to be so mindful.” But that’s not realistic. It’s an outright LIE. I will always have to be mindful. Temptation doesn’t go away just because the pounds do; especially not when in the form of family, friends, and pizza.


  3. The Next 30 Lbs | Week 4

    October 19, 2012 by B.Good

    As of July 2012 – I had lost 40 lbs since the beginning of the year. I inadvertently took the Summer off to enjoy myself and focus on some other projects. But now I’m back…focused…determined to lose The Next 30 Lbs that will put me in the “Healthy Weight” category, per my BMI measurement.

    This progress report is in regards to The Next 30 Lbs…Week 4.

    Yeah…the weekly updates aren’t working, lol. Bi-weekly updates are more likely.

    Weight: -10lbs | BMI: 27.4 (-7.4) | Waist: 36.5″ (-7.5″)

    So…4 weeks in, with 10 lbs lost, I am 1/3 of the way there! YAY!!! I really can’t wait to get to my healthy weight. Weight loss is WORK! All the more reason I can’t afford to succumb to the distractions along the way. But let me tell you… I had some MAJOR distractions the last 2 weeks. And I still managed to lose 5 lbs. God is GOOD! #HaveFaith #LiveHealthy

    I think what keeps me on track…even when I falter…is that the desire to BE and REMAIN healthy is at my CORE. It’s the very essence of who I am and what I am striving to be. Now, I certainly dipped into some Chinese Food this week (and it was “G-double-O-D” GOOD!), but I didn’t get the damaging effects to my body that I used to get. Why? Because my body is a lean-mean fat burning machine. And it no longer stores (or hangs on to) the bad fat. It recognizes that it’s a foreign substance, and works to get it out of my system as quickly as possible.

    [I’ve even regurgitated food that my body didn’t like. And once that happens…you can rest assured I’m not eating that crap again. Didn’t have any business eating it in the first place…*ahem*]

    And get this…as SOON as I get back on track with my healthy meals, my body wastes NO time responding to that as well. It’s like my body is SO relieved that it’s receiving proper nutrition, that it can’t wait to digest the foods and put them to work! And that’s a big difference from my former behavior. BEFORE…I used to eat Chinese Food, and top it off with some more Chinese Food the next day, and the day after that, and the day after that. My body didn’t know how to deal with the crap I was constantly feeding it, so the extra fat and the extra pounds just piled on.

    NOW, if I indulge in eating some crap…I don’t linger there. I don’t stay in that place. I DON’T EVEN WANT TO. I’m eager to get some fresh veggies, protein, fiber, and WATER into my system. That’s what my body craves now. My mind still lusts after the ooey and the gooey [please believe it!], but the physical can only take so much.

    And having trained my body to respond in this way certainly helps ease the food struggle between mind and body, and helps me make good decisions in the end to support my CORE.

    For those who’ve been following along from the beginning of my journey…

    Total Weight Loss: 50lbs


  4. Motivators: I See Other Fat People

    August 31, 2012 by B.Good

    Awareness

    Obesity is out there, waiting on me to return if I’m not mindful. Awareness has done wonders to keep me motivated to get healthy and stay healthy.


  5. Sleep for Weight Loss

    May 11, 2012 by B.Good

    Tired of being ‘sick & tired’?

    Making SLEEP a priority has earned me a healthy(er) body and a healthy(er) mind.

    Image: Maggie Smith / FreeDigitalPhotos.net

  6. 10 weeks later…

    March 15, 2012 by B.Good

    And now for my 10 week progress report…

    Weight: -22lbs | BMI: 31.6 (-3.4) | Waist: 41 (-3)

    Needless to say, I missed my goal to repeat my previous 18 lb weight loss.

    But I did lose 4 lbs over the last 5 weeks, lowered my BMI by 0.6, with no change to my waist measurement.

    So, that’s the good news. And it really is good news, because I actually accomplished the above results over the last 2 weeks. The 3 weeks prior, however, are a different story.

    The Dreaded Plateau

    It happens to the best of us. Everything’s going great, you’re doing (just about) everything right, and suddenly…the number on the scale stops moving. Even as I jumped up and down on the dang thing…that little red line stayed put.

    [I use an analog scale.  Only way I roll.]

    There are many things that can contribute to a plateau, and that is the most annoying part of it all. It’s rare that there is just ONE reason why your body settles at a particular weight, and it’s rare that just ONE solution will get you going again.

    My Story of Plateau

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  7. 4 weeks later…

    February 2, 2012 by B.Good

    In just 4 weeks, I’ve been changed. Not only physically, but mentally – which is the hardest element of oneself to change.

    In just 4 weeks, I’ve learned to enjoy cooking. Beyond that, I value the time and care that goes into preparing my own meals. Anyone who knows me knows…“I don’t cook.” I can warm the hell out of a Stouffers Vegetable Lasagna; but slaving over a hot stove was never my thing.

    In just 4 weeks, I’ve become addicted to water. I crave it, even. And I used to HATE water. So much, that if water was the only thing available to drink, I’d just go thirsty all day. I’d rather have nothing at all than drink a glass of water. Not anymore…

    In just 4 weeks, I’ve found myself looking forward to gym time. And I HATE working out. I don’t do sweat. Eck, I hate to sweat. But something’s come over me, and I’m now a happy gym person.

    In just 4 weeks, I’ve completely changed my priorities and HEALTH is at the top of the list. Everything that I need to do to BE healthy, which were burdens before, are now worth every effort.