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December, 2012

  1. Motivators: Failure

    December 18, 2012 by B.Good

    Losing weight is hard. Even if you were living in a vacuum, being spoon fed healthy foods, and had a machine that burns calories in your sleep…it would still be hard.

    So you can understand how much HARDER it is to lose weight and be healthy…when EVERYONE around you is on a whole nutha’ agenda. Eating WHATever, whenever, however. It’s far too easy to fall into sync with them and lose track of what you are trying to do. As I sit and type right now, my companion brings in a whole pizza, and sits it in my face. All seasoned up with garlic salt, red pepper flakes, and oregano. *drools* Now it’s looking at me begging me to take a slice. Oh how nice & easy that would be, if not for the fact that…I’ve been backsliding.
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    What they don’t tell you about a “healthy” lifestyle change is that…you can never go back…if you want to stay healthy. Like ever. Not even a little bit.

    How much easier would it be if everyone could just change along with me? (Not too far-fetched, right?)

    *sigh*

    I’m really disappointed in myself. Again, yet AGAIN, I could have been at my healthy weight by now, but instead, I’m further away than I was before. But perhaps I needed this wake-up call. I can’t phone in these next 30 lbs. And if I’m not careful, it’ll be more than that.

    I keep thinking…“Argh! I can’t WAIT till I lose this weight, so I can eat like a regular person and not have to be so mindful.” But that’s not realistic. It’s an outright LIE. I will always have to be mindful. Temptation doesn’t go away just because the pounds do; especially not when in the form of family, friends, and pizza.